There are so many different ways in how people deal with their problems. Some like to tackle them heads-on; some won’t hesitate to ask for help; and some would just completely avoid it. Depending on the situation, people can respond to problems in any of these various ways.
For instance, when I found out that one of our vendors at work wasn’t able to deliver on time, my head rang in high alert. Instead of chocking on the news, I immediately took action by formulating a back-up plan, doing what I got to do to make this deadline. Even though my heart was racing in sheer panic at the possibility of failing, my immediate reaction was to tackle the problem heads-on because it would be a bigger disappointment if I didn’t at least try to make this work.
Now, have you ever heard of the stereotype that “Asians are really good at math”? Well, don’t count on me to live up to that. One of the reasons why I majored in Communication Studies is because I didn’t have to take any math classes. With that said, I stumbled onto a problem, where I had to calculate the cost of a booklet per page – a task that was beyond my mathematical skills. After multiplying and dividing numbers that made my head go round, I decided that it was time to ask for help. Sometimes, two minds are better than one.
No matter where we come from or have gone through, we all have problems that we like to refer to them as our “demons.” One of the demons that I am, currently, battling are the constant voices in my head saying — you’re doing this wrong…why didn’t you think of that in the first place…you can’t do this. These voices are constantly telling me that I am a total failure.
For the past couple of months now, it feels as if bricks were being dropped onto my shoulders, pushing me into the ground. Even though every step I take gets a bit heavier and heavier, that doesn’t mean I haven’t been fighting through all that weight. To relieve me of these thoughts, I went on a solo hike, took a road trip, bought a new hat and got myself a new hairdo. Unfortunately, what was perceived as solutions for me in the past apparently are not solutions for me in the present moment…
I’ve realized that my lack of confidence and self-doubt are problems that have always been present, and what I had thought were “solutions” are actually distractions. Because these distractions can no longer shield me from the bigger issues, I am at the point in my life where it’s time for me to start facing them.